Not really....I lied <33

ANYWAY now that I have your attention....



Hello lovers.

Well firstly to begin....yes I added a picture, yes it is scary, and yes it is almost making you want to stab your eyes out with rusty nails or follow through with one of those retarded over kill Saw scenes [For those of you who know him and just saw the picture and was like...W...T....F....F?!?!?!?!?! [what the fucking fuck] ]
Hahaha I kind of stared at it and decided yes..yes I would put it up. It would be interesting as hell...just reactions. x3 I know when I took the pic on my phone a long while ago I was like HAHAHAHAHA HOLY SHIT THATS TRAUMATIZING. and to this day I still believe that. Him gangster in any way shape or form makes anyone cringe....

But he is not the topic of my journal entry...This entry is just to keep a little update. First off I would like to apologize for actually not having come on, and when I do come on posting shit pieces. [Now to those assholes who are sniffing at this and going "if they are so crapy why are you putting them up? you obviously like them to some extent" or "Yes they are fucking shitty but you shouldn't put them up if you think that" I am just putting up things that amused me and things so I can at least say I put things up once every 10 blue moons... -.-] I make a promise to you that I will actually be putting some good pictures up, and a little more horror and gore pictures in which due to the help of my lovely friends I was able to make some pretty grotesque shit. Though I must say I have to put on a mature filter sinec it is kind of graphic and if I may say so myself, look pretty realistic, though for the hell of it we totally used more blood than any person should bleed out, just cause we are dorks and we love to make fake blood and have fights with it. I have a few pictures already developed from the past which are currently mounted and stashed away in a porfolio of sorts for me to either burn or put up here, if not to let sit and collect dust. These are ones that are not gore and recent they are fairly old. Personally I kind of like the thought of putting it up here, especially since I would rather them not go to waste...and actually get some half decent stuff up here. I prefer photography myself, black and white only though, color is ok, but I think black and white really is a bit more than color, since the slightest imbalane messes up the entire picture. Maybe I will put up a few colored pictures if I feel up to it. I have seriously gotten into that and gave up attempting to draw. [[Don't know what crack I have been on the past few months that I have tried to draw]] I am cureently focusing on improving my writing and becoming well read and so on, reading older pieces of work and classics. I hope by taking this in, and researching the styles or writing [romantic, abstract, absurdist, ect...] i can improve my writing. Photography, I need a dark room. My birthday's coming up [seriously it is] anyone want to buy me a black room? Or maybe a hot japanese man...O.o a visual Kei artist would be nice if possible.... if not a scandanavian man would due : 3. Hehehe.... but back to dark rooms, I need one so I can actually develop my pictures and junk, but I have no room. I am depressed cause I want to continue to progress in taking pictures, but its getting harder and harder each passing day. I suppose those two forms of art will be my main focus, and maybe a fiew pieces of doodles that I draw now and then though don't expect it.

I also, for a fully random turn in conversation, erm...ramble...I would like to apologize to dani bones. For some deranged reason I feel as though I might have angered her...for reasons unknown to myself [I am pretty oblivious...and she is not one to put her rage and malice and hate on her sleeves to people..its deadly O.o]. If you are mad at me, whatever I did I apologize with my entire being...and yeah I announced it on deviant art x3
Just as great as a myspace or facebook break up xD

But I suppose this is pointless cause maybe one or two people actually look at my page and I dont think enough people care to read this or even look at my stuff [I know I sure as fuck don't, rather wouldn't] if I were anyone else. Not until I got better stuff up, or the gods of art come and hit me with a giant paint brush that gives me the artistic ability of the greatest painters [and H.R G <333] then I wont put too much up.

Well I am a wee bit tired myself.
So I am going to take my leave...

Nighty Night loves.

"Anorexia is a mental disease..."
"....Then call me fucking crazy..."
-not exact quote....-

~F.B.F