Well lets see I got a lot to say...Yea a lot of junk.

Firstly my let downs, I totally missed Cruefest, which was Motely Crue, Sixx AM, Papa Roach, Buckcherry and a few other people. I really was only going for Crue, I would have gone for Sixx AM, but I sware to god if I hear anything by Sixx AM for a long while I am going to stab whoever plays it in the throat with a dull scaple and cut them open. DOn't get me wrong, Sixx AM is great...but I'm tired of them and hearing them everywhere I turn. It's like when you take a good band and KILL them. Example for myself would be H.I.M, Cradle Of Filth, and Mindless Self Indulgence. Three great bands who when they released a new track it got so played out because every little pre teenage bimbo is playing it. I am ashamed to wear an MSI shirt or my heartagram gloves anymore. But I have my Psyclon Nine shirt and industrial goggles to make me feel better *cuddles with psyclon nine and goggles and other industrial based stuff in her posession*
Also I missed Basshunter.

Positives! I am seeing Rotting Christ and Novembers Doom in January because a personal friend of mine, the front man for this black metal band, has my tickets on reserve to see him and these other bands. So I am pretty stoked. I am seeing Apocolyptica on the 26th and I am seeing Dir En Grey on 14/11. :'D Which is two days after their CD release which makes me very happy in the pants because I get to see Hot Japanese men and hear new songs <33
ALSO I had the pleasure of meeting Mith [~Mithia ] in person a few days back. : D sadly we didn't get to talk very long, but never the less it was great to actually see her. I really hope that we get to meet up again soon so that we can actually sit and talk, and so I don't need to go on the epic search for her house. ><

On the note of epic searches, my job hunting since I am going, is epically failing too. I want to choke-a-bitch. I love how places wont hire you because you don't have enough experiences, but how the hell are you suppose to get experience when you cant get a place to work at and hold it. I don't know, it makes me laugh though. I actually have a decent shot at getting hired at this one place but it is a pain in the ass to work there. Like I need to change everything that is me. Take out all my ear rings and my other piercings, change my hair which is already as "normal" as I will let it get *Is still lamenting over her pink and blue/ pink and black hair being gone*. And it is seasonal. I was like Mmmm false. But the pay is pretty good...I just need to assimilate myself.

Well I am going to go shopping soon, which should be fun since I get a shit load of new clothing cause I threw out ALL of my old clothing. I have like three pairs of jeans and a few T shirts and tank tops [[Lol and I am only wearing like 5 of them the rest are just concert memories.]].

Well I suppose that's it, and well it was entertaining since I made a trip to the city and got a spiffy comb and I walked into a fetish shop to get a corset. See normally the fetish shops don't bother me, if you know me then you would understand why it is ABSOLUTELY NO problem at all. But it was pretty hysterical walking in with my mom to buy one.I mean nothing bad happened, the only thing was that it was just awkward. I ended up getting pissed at my mom because some woman in her late 30's was hitting on me and I was traumatized, and this was after I started hitting on this guy who ended up being gay...[[HE TOTALLY DIDN'T SEEM IT!]] [[yeah I have issues with guys, the most recent few was one who was in an identity crisis, a total psychopath who I didn't want to go out with but he created his own little reality and ended up becoming a stalker...*shivers*, and then a suicidal emo boy...so I have bad luck...Im thinking of becoming Asexual..]] my mom was having a field day laughing at me. I love my mom so its ok but still. I guess it was her revenge for me laughing at a guy for going up to her when she tried on a pair of the more clean and formal tripp pants and he said "honey, unless you want your ass to look like it's sagging get the size smaller".

Oh, and the guy I currently like is pretty Asexual and I had a dream he turned into a bunny. So I am kind of creeped out.

That sums up me at the moment...More later I suppose.

You are tagged if you want to be

Rules of the game
* Answer using titles of songs.
* Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged).
Oh and as an added bonus I will give you the lyrics for the songs too. Especially the more obscure ones.

1. Are you male or female?
"Propane Nightmares"- Pendulum

Something's tearing me down
And down
Can't help but feel it's coming from you
She's a gunshot bride
With a trigger cries
I just wonder what we've gotten our selves into
In a trail of fire I know we will be free again
In the end we will be one
In a trail of fire I'll burn before you bury me
Set your sights for the sun

Mind is willing
Soul remains
This woman cannot be saved
From the drawn into the fire
Mind is willing
Soul remains
This woman cannot be saved
From the drawn into the fire
Any danger
Bring it on home (4x)

Much to weak to jump yourself
Heal the wounds or crack the shell
Lift yourself from once below
Much to weak to jump yourself
Heal the wounds or crack the shell
Lift yourself from once below
Praise the anger
Bring it on home (4x)

In a trail of fire I know we will be free again
In the end we will be one
In a trail of fire I'll burn before you bury me
Set your sights for the sun
Bring it on home


2. Describe yourself.


Deeply Disturbed - Infected Mushroom

And i'm deeply disturbed
And i'm deeply unhappy
And i'm deeply disturbed
And i'm deeply unhappy
And i'm deeply disturbed
And i'm deeply unhappy
And i'm deeply disturbed
And i'm deeply unhappy
(background sound)deeeeeeeeply disturrrrrbed
deeeeeeeeply disturrrrrrrrbed
And i'm deeply disturbed..(background sound)..deeeeeeeeply
And i'm deeply unhappy ..(background sound)..disturrrrbed
And i'm deeply disturbed..
And i'm deeply unhappy
deeply disturbed..(background sound)..deeply
And i'm deeply unhappy ..(background sound)..disturrrrbed
Deeply disturbed
And i'm deeply unhappy....

Cities of the Future- Infected Mushroom

We gonna run run run
To the cities of the future
Take what we can and bring back home
So take me down to the cities of the future
Everybody's happy and i feel at home
(x4)
I found myself going away
Never wanting to go back again.
Leaving all my thoughts behind
Searching for some new ones inside.
I found myself
(x8)
Run run run
To the cities of the future
Take what we can and bring back home
So take me down to the cities of the future
Everybody's happy and i feel at home.
(x2)
We gonna run run run
To the cities of the future
Take what we can and bring back home
So take me down to the cities of the future
Everybody's happy and i feel at home

Rusted- Psyclon Nine

I feel so useless
So pointless
Nothing left for me to say
Laying in the corner
Can I make this go away?
To let these curdled tears flow
Burning from my soul
How can I exist
If I could just
Let it all go

Handlebars- The Flobots
[[again popular enough you should know it]]

Dance With The Wolves- Angerfist
[[The deeply disturbed lyrics were annoying enough look these up]]

Dead enough for life- Icon of Coil
Prove and disprove
Efficiency of prayer
Supposed to be harmless
Can never get enough

I'm the three-head watchdog
This, my revelation
My only decease
A manifest of life

If I could reach through, catch you
Make you understand
If l'm not dead enough for life
Am I alive enough for death?

A gift from the unknown
Promises they gave us
Rejection of faith
An eye for this purpose

Emotional images
Drawn with a single line
Our methods are unsound
A life I cannot offer
I cannot offer


Behind a Gas Mask- Panzer AG
Beneath the ice
We live our lives
We seek attention
Our fozen hearts
Our frozen minds
Can't feel compassion
Why seek the sun
Why should I care?

A winter year

Hands on the book
Hands on the sun
We need submission
We seek to claim
Drink bio rain
We're all imortal
We breed our sons
To live their life
Behind a gasmask
Why seek the sun
Why should I care?

A winteryear

Why seek the sun
Why should I care?
We're all immortal


I'm no Superman- Lazlo Bane
Out the door just in time
Head down the 405
Gotta meet the new boss by 8 a.m.
The phone rings in the car
The wife is workin' hard
She's running late tonight again

Well
I know what I've been told,
You got to work to feed the soul
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know, I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

You've got your love online
You think you're doing fine
But you're just plugged into the wall

And that deck of tarot cards
Won't get you very far
There ain't no hand to break your fall

Well
I know what I've been told
You gotta know just when to fold
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know, I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

That's right

You've crossed the finish line
Won the race but lost your mind
Was it worth it after all

I need you here with me
Cause love is all we need
Just take a hold of the hand that breaks the fall

Well I know what I've been told
Gotta break free to break the mold
But I can't do this all on my own
No I can't do this all on my own
I know that I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

Someday we'll be together
I'm no Superman
Someday
Someday we'll be together
Someday
I'm no Superman

Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground

Hanging around downtown by myself
and I had so much time to sit and think about myself
and then there she was
like double cherrypie yeah there she was
like disco superfly

I smell sex and candy here
who's that launching in a chair
who's that casting deverotairs in my direction
mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this surely is a dream

hanging around downtown by myself
and I had too much caffeen and I was thinking about myself
and then there she was
in platform double sway yeah there she was
like disco lemonade

I smell sex and candy here
who's that launching in a chair
who's that casting deverostairs in my direction
mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this surely is a dream

I smell sex and candy here
who's that launching in my chair
who's that casting deverostairs in my direction
mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this surely is a dream
yeah mama this lost in my dreams


3. What do people feel when they're around you?

I'm Your Favorite Drug- Porcelain and The Tramps
What you get is what you see
it wont take much to get hooked on me
so shoot me right into your skin
and I will be your heroin

The side effects are sexual
and your dying for a taste
the side effects are sexual
and you love the way I say

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you can't break this addiction, no
Your favorite drug, your favorite drug,
i'm your favorite drug, your favorite drug

I put my nails into your back
and you feel me like a spinal tap
you want it from me on both knees
but not until you beg me please

The side effects are sexual
and your dying for a taste
the side effects are sexual
and you love the way I say

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you can't break this addiction, no
Your favorite drug, your favorite drug,
i'm your favorite drug, your favorite drug
Your favorite drug, your favorite drug,
i'm your favorite drug, your favorite drug

I'm your pleasure in your pain
I'll numb your fear just like cocaine
and I'm your treasure
say my name

I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough
I'm your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you can't break this addiction, no
your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you can't break this addiction, no
your favorite drug
your favorite drug
you can't break this addiction, no

Your favorite drug, your favorite drug,
i'm your favorite drug, your favorite drug
Your favorite drug, your favorite drug,
i'm your favorite drug, your favorite drug


Right Now- Korn
I'm feeling mean today
Not lost, not blown away
Just irritated and quite hated
Till control breaks down
Why's everything so tame
I like my life insane
I'm fabericating and defeating you
I'm gunna kick around

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
That live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

I'm feeling cold today
Not hurt just fucked away
I'm devasted and frustrated
God I feel so bound
So why I'd feel the need
I think it's time to bleed
I'm gunna cut myself and
Watch the blood hit the ground

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
That live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

You open your mouth again
I swear I'm gunna break it
You Open your mouth again,
By god I cannot take it

Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up
Shutup, shutup, shutup, or I'll fuck you up

Right now
Can't find a way
To get across the hate
When I see you

Right Now
I'm feeling strange inside
I want to search and feel you

Right Now
I rip apart the things inside
That live beside you

Right Now
I can't control myself
But I fucking hate you!

I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you
I fuckin' hate you

Better Open The Door- Motion City Soundtrack
[[You should know it...]]

Caramelldansen [speedy cake remix]- Craamell

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
"Fuck off And Die"- The Peppermint Creeps

You're not very nice and i don't think i like you
You're not very nice 'cause you made me cry
You're not very nice and i don't wanna see you
So why don't you just fuck off and die

Once i used to say "i love you"
What a fuckin' joke you bitch
I thought you loved me too

If i had a dime for every dick you sucked
I'd be a millionaire
Makes me so damn fuckin' sick
To have thought you'd ever care

I gave you my heart, i gave you my trust
I even got down on my knees
I even gave you my keys
I gave you all I ever had, I gave you everything
But guess what bitch
I never really loved you


You're not very nice and I don't think I like you
You're not very nice 'cause you made me cry
You're not very nice and I don't wanna see you
So why don't you just fuck off and die

Fuck off and die
Fuck off and die


Why? cuz I caught you with another guy

Now I can finally say "I'm over you"
Besides you weren't worth half the shit
You fuckin' put me trough

My frieds said I was pussy-whipped
But I was just naive
Best thing I ever did was
Turn around and leave


5. Describe your current relationship.
"Coin Operated Boy" -D. Dolls.
[[I am not in one but that would most likely be it.]]
"Love me dead" - Ludo
[[a little fun thrown in]]
6. Where would you want to be now?
"Satallite- Armin Van Burren.

7. How do you feel about love?
Better Than Suicide- Psyclon Nine

This cancer eats the filth away
Ran from slits so deep so dirty
Fed the vile the children's bane

Yes this pestilence this lovers dream
The flesh this plague assimilates
The end of all: this slate wiped clean

Eclipsing devotion with shallow disguise
They prey on the fruit of the one they despise

Better than suicide

Disorder guilds the human filth
Wrecked from fair perversity
The wicked frails at touch the ill

The children frisk in killing fields
Dark rivers of corrosion flow
And meet the shores of throes un-healed


Scar of The Deceiver - Psyclon Nine

Poisoned by your creed
Kill the faith to cure the sickness
Down on your knees
Prove to me you'll die for your belief

And when I purge all the morals you breed
To be clean to be clean
For the coming collapse of your dream
Your scattered bones will build my effigy

I wear the scar of the deceiver

And in the end when I've turned your lives to dust
And obliterated every trace of you from my mind
I'll be free to make this world my own

Don't cry to me, this is what you want
This is what you asked for
This is your prophecy
And I've come to see it through

8. What's your life like?
Dead enough for life- Icon of Coil
Prove and disprove
Efficiency of prayer
Supposed to be harmless
Can never get enough

I'm the three-head watchdog
This, my revelation
My only decease
A manifest of life

If I could reach through, catch you
Make you understand
If l'm not dead enough for life
Am I alive enough for death?

A gift from the unknown
Promises they gave us
Rejection of faith
An eye for this purpose

Emotional images
Drawn with a single line
Our methods are unsound
A life I cannot offer
I cannot offer

Alice (Wonderland Rave Mix)- Happy Hardcore
I don't know where she's leavin or where she's gonna go
I guess she's got her reasons
But I just don't want to know
Because for twenty four year's I've been living next door to Alice.

Twenty four years just waitin for the chance
To tell her how I feel or maybe get a second glance
Now I've got to get used to not living next door to Alice
[Alice? Who the fuck is Alice?!]

The Future Freaks me Out- Motion City Soundtrack
[[know it.]]


Into the Rush- Motercycle

FSCENE8- The Medic Droid

Fiction (Dreams in Digital)- Orgy
She's lost in coma where it's beautiful
Intoxicated fromt he deep sleep, deep sleep
Do you wonder what it's like living in a permanent imagination
Sleeping to escape reality, but you like it like that

I'm guilty by design, she's nothing more than fiction
She dreams in digital, 'cause it's better than nothing
Now that control is gone, it seems unreal
She's dreaming in digital, she dreams in digital

And your pixel army can't save you now, my finger's on the killswitch.
I remember I used to compose your dreams, control your dreams
And don't be afraid to expose yourself before I shut you down
You made some changes since the virus caught you sleeping

I'm guilty by design, she's nothing more than fiction
She dreams in digital, 'cause it's better than nothing
Now that control is gone, it seems unreal
Shes dreaming in digital, she dreams in digital

Oh, she dreams in digital
She's guilty by design
cause it's better than nothing
now that control is gone, it seems unreal
She's dreaming in digital

Shes nothing more than fiction
'Cause it's better than nothing
now that control is gone, it seems unreal
She's dreaming in digital

dreams in digital....



9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?

Play God- Deathstars.

; )

Dead starlight bleeds down
On the devil's nitrate
All the nerves of the patients
Bathe in shock and shame
Cause I'm the trigger that'll start this game

And the strike of the night will trash the skyline
And darken the marks I've put in your skin

'Cause I want to play God
With you
I want to rule it all
Rule you

The human cattle lick
On the ethical nightsticks
All the tear of the victims
Run on cold cheeks' meat
Cause here's a future that'll feed on sheep

Let's play a game of two
I'll play God and you'll play you
Let's play a game tonight
I'll play Dark and you'll play Light


10. Say something wise.
Life is Beautiful- Sixx A.M.
You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You can't breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you're the joke
There's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you don't
I've done things that you won't
There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Alive...
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

1] put your itunes, windows meadia player, etc. on shuffle
2] for each question, press the next button to get your answer
3] YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4] tag three people

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY:
"Headstone" Ghost Machine
[[Wtf O.o]]

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
"Another Brick in the Wall" Pink Floyd
[[wow...that was awesome and true]]
[[part 1 btw]]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Gimme Gimme Bloodshead" Wednesday 13
[[xD I do like blood and violence....hehehe]]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Over the Mountain" Ozzy
[[O.o....]]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"As Above So Below" Behemoth
[[heheh wow...my life's purpose is this.]]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Soilbleed (Agonoize Remix)" Grendel
[[O.o]]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Habit" Tub Ring
[[*shrugs* if they do they are weird]]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENT(S) THINK OF YOU?
"Dead Enough For Life" Icon of Coil
[[xD ok thats true probably]]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF OFTEN?
"Christmas Hardcore" Angerfist
[[xD oh totally]]

WHAT IS 2+2?
Rammstein Remix - KMFDM
[[dunno the real name of the song....T.T]]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"I wish I was a girl" Violent Delight.
[[xD hahaha...wow... Totally. If I was a lesbian...]]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"Terrible" Insane Clown Possie

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Under Huntress Moon" Cradle of Filth

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Crank Dat Soulja Boy- Travis Barker [[his version]]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Eleanor Rigby - Godhead version

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Damn Me - Deathstars
[[oh fuck yes they will]]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Vestige- TM Revolution

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Faggot- Mindless Self Indulgence
x3

I tag

Christ in hell >>


1.Post these rules.
2.People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3.Tag eight people and post their icons on the same journal.
4.Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5.No tag-backs.

1. I am a graver...Graver = Gothic raver. It isn't something you can get based off of my appearence but whatever suck me...I am what I am, you can see me at the clubs in the city and you wouldn't know it was me unless I told you : )

2. I am a pervert, there is nothing in my being that will have me lie about that. However I wont be an asshole like most people who are perverts, just keep it to myself or the given few who were cursed to find out [[Pickles....Jinu....leeches...lots and lots]].

3. Despite my perverted half, I am a lady...at least I try to be. When Need be I can sit down and have a very indepth conversation about anything, as long as it isn't something that is morbidly depressing, and when I say that I mean on the topic of death for extended periods of time. You can really get depressed after that.

4. I have a lot more piercings than people seem to think I do >> ...nough said.

5. When I turn 18 I plan on doing a lot of crazy things...example I plan on getting a few body mods done...firstly I plan on getting branded. The symbol on the cover of INRI [[album by P9((You should know who that is if not doom on you!))]] on the back of my left him and a biohazard symbol on the back of my right [[I have a freakish obsession with the biohazard]] since I dont want to risk ever if I choose to have kids, have a tattoo on my lower back and them say that I cant get the anaesthetic... [[C-Section me baby...]] and I want to do a superman suspension... BMEzine would be the best way to explain it...a picture is worth a thousand words...[[not for the weak of stomachs]]

6. Im a sadomasochist... I think people should have figured that out by the above stated in number 5

7. I have miserable luck... I never seem to get anything right and I feel compleatly worthless. It seems I can never do anything right...quoting Type O Negative "I dont wanna be, I dont wanna be me.....I dont wanna be me anymore"

8. My hair is pretty spiffy, It always is interesting. ; 3 right now its like green and pink orange...its faded but it used to be hot pink and blue...all over. I am probably doing stripes of red and hot pink next since I learned how...

Real number 8. I have a lot of people I talk to, a few of them are frieneds and the friends I do have are very different and unique, a few of my top best friends [[top 6 I am speaking of three of the six]] don't even dress anything like me and are def. higher in the social ladder than I am, they are at the top and Im at the bottom.

Suppose thats it... I dont know who I m gonna tag i think most of them have been tagged >>

Not really....I lied <33

ANYWAY now that I have your attention....



Hello lovers.

Well firstly to begin....yes I added a picture, yes it is scary, and yes it is almost making you want to stab your eyes out with rusty nails or follow through with one of those retarded over kill Saw scenes [For those of you who know him and just saw the picture and was like...W...T....F....F?!?!?!?!?! [what the fucking fuck] ]
Hahaha I kind of stared at it and decided yes..yes I would put it up. It would be interesting as hell...just reactions. x3 I know when I took the pic on my phone a long while ago I was like HAHAHAHAHA HOLY SHIT THATS TRAUMATIZING. and to this day I still believe that. Him gangster in any way shape or form makes anyone cringe....

But he is not the topic of my journal entry...This entry is just to keep a little update. First off I would like to apologize for actually not having come on, and when I do come on posting shit pieces. [Now to those assholes who are sniffing at this and going "if they are so crapy why are you putting them up? you obviously like them to some extent" or "Yes they are fucking shitty but you shouldn't put them up if you think that" I am just putting up things that amused me and things so I can at least say I put things up once every 10 blue moons... -.-] I make a promise to you that I will actually be putting some good pictures up, and a little more horror and gore pictures in which due to the help of my lovely friends I was able to make some pretty grotesque shit. Though I must say I have to put on a mature filter sinec it is kind of graphic and if I may say so myself, look pretty realistic, though for the hell of it we totally used more blood than any person should bleed out, just cause we are dorks and we love to make fake blood and have fights with it. I have a few pictures already developed from the past which are currently mounted and stashed away in a porfolio of sorts for me to either burn or put up here, if not to let sit and collect dust. These are ones that are not gore and recent they are fairly old. Personally I kind of like the thought of putting it up here, especially since I would rather them not go to waste...and actually get some half decent stuff up here. I prefer photography myself, black and white only though, color is ok, but I think black and white really is a bit more than color, since the slightest imbalane messes up the entire picture. Maybe I will put up a few colored pictures if I feel up to it. I have seriously gotten into that and gave up attempting to draw. [[Don't know what crack I have been on the past few months that I have tried to draw]] I am cureently focusing on improving my writing and becoming well read and so on, reading older pieces of work and classics. I hope by taking this in, and researching the styles or writing [romantic, abstract, absurdist, ect...] i can improve my writing. Photography, I need a dark room. My birthday's coming up [seriously it is] anyone want to buy me a black room? Or maybe a hot japanese man...O.o a visual Kei artist would be nice if possible.... if not a scandanavian man would due : 3. Hehehe.... but back to dark rooms, I need one so I can actually develop my pictures and junk, but I have no room. I am depressed cause I want to continue to progress in taking pictures, but its getting harder and harder each passing day. I suppose those two forms of art will be my main focus, and maybe a fiew pieces of doodles that I draw now and then though don't expect it.

I also, for a fully random turn in conversation, erm...ramble...I would like to apologize to dani bones. For some deranged reason I feel as though I might have angered her...for reasons unknown to myself [I am pretty oblivious...and she is not one to put her rage and malice and hate on her sleeves to people..its deadly O.o]. If you are mad at me, whatever I did I apologize with my entire being...and yeah I announced it on deviant art x3
Just as great as a myspace or facebook break up xD

But I suppose this is pointless cause maybe one or two people actually look at my page and I dont think enough people care to read this or even look at my stuff [I know I sure as fuck don't, rather wouldn't] if I were anyone else. Not until I got better stuff up, or the gods of art come and hit me with a giant paint brush that gives me the artistic ability of the greatest painters [and H.R G <333] then I wont put too much up.

Well I am a wee bit tired myself.
So I am going to take my leave...

Nighty Night loves.

"Anorexia is a mental disease..."
"....Then call me fucking crazy..."
-not exact quote....-

~F.B.F